Someone had wronged me.. many years ago. That person went ahead to lead a happy life. Their happiness made me sick, and I would ask Karma if it even had the balls to restore the balance of good and evil. I decided I would wait for the right time, and to have enough power to take matters into my own hands. I needed vengeance much more than I needed peace of mind. I needed to know they are suffering as much as I once did. I wanted them as damaged as they damaged me.
Time doesn't heal. Time does what it does best- adds more layers of time on something rotten so we would forget it. Good things did happen to me. I found some exceptional people. I moved on. But there's this thing about us.. we remember. We are designed to remember hurt more than remembering love. No one loves with the same passion that they hate with.
And so, there is nothing more fulfilling than knowing that the universe has avenged your pain. This person is unhappy, directionless, groping in the same darkness that I was once pushed into.And that feels good.
This is what a full circle feels like. Judge me all you want, but you can judge me only for being honest...for it is in our very nature to seek justice. We want to believe in emancipation and our capacity for it, and so we build and repetitively recite our stories about altruism and forgiveness till we start thinking them as true. The fact is.. we never truly forgive, just like we never truly forget.
Retribution is the only closure there is.
Time doesn't heal. Time does what it does best- adds more layers of time on something rotten so we would forget it. Good things did happen to me. I found some exceptional people. I moved on. But there's this thing about us.. we remember. We are designed to remember hurt more than remembering love. No one loves with the same passion that they hate with.
And so, there is nothing more fulfilling than knowing that the universe has avenged your pain. This person is unhappy, directionless, groping in the same darkness that I was once pushed into.And that feels good.
This is what a full circle feels like. Judge me all you want, but you can judge me only for being honest...for it is in our very nature to seek justice. We want to believe in emancipation and our capacity for it, and so we build and repetitively recite our stories about altruism and forgiveness till we start thinking them as true. The fact is.. we never truly forgive, just like we never truly forget.
Retribution is the only closure there is.
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